Jane’s Phone: Have You Ever Spit on Someone’s Pillowcase?
Or put nail polish on their favorite bag? It’s a highly specific urge but has a lot of overlap with the feeling of being sleep deprived. Whenever I don’t get enough sleep, I have this feeling that everyone is shortchanging me somehow, when it’s really just the sleep lack.
I have used this sweet sleep app for more than 10 years. Which means I have that many years of recordings of myself snoring or coughing or whatever I do in my sleep (mostly not sleep — Vanessa knows this well, as she and I often get a substantial amount of work done between 3 and 5 am). My favorite thing is when it records me talking in my sleep. When it is coherent, it is often not pretty stuff that I’m saying, sorry to say. I can be harsh and am clearly really upset with someone, though I usually don’t remember who. I also speak in accents a lot. But at least I don’t actually spit on anyone’s pillowcase or put a little dab of lipstick on their brand new shoe (anymore).
Have you ever had the urge to retaliate against someone in a petty, gross way like that? Also related and more common: How many of you have ever had an urge to punch somebody? Or do you not even know what in the hell I’m talking about?
In my 20s I used to be a pretty avid sleep walker. I once woke up, nude, in my building's elevator around 5:30am with zero clue how I got there. I went down to the ground floor and grabbed my copy of the Chicago Tribune and made a kilt out of it. Remarkably none of the other residents were around. But It was pretty awkward when I had to knock on my super's door to get let back into my apartment (the doors automatically locked when shut and there was no way to disable it).
Honestly I only have these thoughts randomly and in the past, what would be considered as OCD-why is no one mentioning this as a pattern?