Jane’s Phone: Thank You & What’s Next for Us?
What got me through last night — and I mean the whole entire overnight, even continuing up until right now — was being on a live chat with all of you beautiful, thoughtful, AJPT smarties while we watched and talked and snacked and gossiped and intentionally derailed our way through the election results as they came in. The only thing I can think of that will continue to get me through is to continue supporting each other and to keep scheming to make things better. I’ll be here in the comments all day and beyond to do that with you. I love you and I thank you. Always.
Right now this is one of the few spaces where I feel safe, thanks to the AJPT team I work with every day.
I just feel sort of numb and manic at the same time. A long time ago, I was in a dark place and I started medication for anxiety. I feel right now like I did before the meds kicked in. I have things I want to say but they are all coming at me at a million miles an hour. I am afraid if I write them down in a post or have a conversation I will sound like an absolute imbecile. I can't organize my thoughts.
I am not worried about myself. It will not be the life I was hoping to have, seeing as how I am in my 50's and this will have horrible consequences for decades to come, but I will survive. I know people, love people that will not be ok and there are millions I don't know personally that will not be ok. I also know people that caused this to happen and I don't think I can have civil words with them right now, maybe not at all.