I just feel sort of numb and manic at the same time. A long time ago, I was in a dark place and I started medication for anxiety. I feel right now like I did before the meds kicked in. I have things I want to say but they are all coming at me at a million miles an hour. I am afraid if I write them down in a post or have a conversation I …
I just feel sort of numb and manic at the same time. A long time ago, I was in a dark place and I started medication for anxiety. I feel right now like I did before the meds kicked in. I have things I want to say but they are all coming at me at a million miles an hour. I am afraid if I write them down in a post or have a conversation I will sound like an absolute imbecile. I can't organize my thoughts.
I am not worried about myself. It will not be the life I was hoping to have, seeing as how I am in my 50's and this will have horrible consequences for decades to come, but I will survive. I know people, love people that will not be ok and there are millions I don't know personally that will not be ok. I also know people that caused this to happen and I don't think I can have civil words with them right now, maybe not at all.
Well said, Jennifer. I was having anxiety symptoms last night too (and have also had medication for it in the past, but not recently). And now I also feel (you described it perfectly) scrambled and numb and a little stuck – which is one of my least favorite feelings of all time. So I'm looking for and forward to that glimmer of hope that keeps giving me reasons to push ahead for good. I know it's there.
I just feel sort of numb and manic at the same time. A long time ago, I was in a dark place and I started medication for anxiety. I feel right now like I did before the meds kicked in. I have things I want to say but they are all coming at me at a million miles an hour. I am afraid if I write them down in a post or have a conversation I will sound like an absolute imbecile. I can't organize my thoughts.
I am not worried about myself. It will not be the life I was hoping to have, seeing as how I am in my 50's and this will have horrible consequences for decades to come, but I will survive. I know people, love people that will not be ok and there are millions I don't know personally that will not be ok. I also know people that caused this to happen and I don't think I can have civil words with them right now, maybe not at all.
Well said, Jennifer. I was having anxiety symptoms last night too (and have also had medication for it in the past, but not recently). And now I also feel (you described it perfectly) scrambled and numb and a little stuck – which is one of my least favorite feelings of all time. So I'm looking for and forward to that glimmer of hope that keeps giving me reasons to push ahead for good. I know it's there.
You said it perfectly. All these things are true for me too